#MyMusicStory

Submitted by: Carolyn Fe (Website, Bandcamp)

I was 20 years young and naïve when my career as a contemporary dancer/choreographer was soaring to heights unknown. Although I had considered myself well-versed in music, I was living with a budding musician who not only opened my eyes to the subtleties and artistries of mainstream music but introduced me to some “underground” artists of the time: Bauhaus, Cabaret Voltaire, Gary Numan and so many more. He showed me how music, when used as a soundtrack, can influence the audiences views on a movie. With my newfound appreciation and newly opened “eyes and ears” on music, my work became touted as “avant garde”, critics would say that I was pushing envelopes and challenging the audiences’ views on dance.

I worked a lot, and was blessed with many opportunities but my love life was a total mess. The more I worked, the more the budding musician became blindly jealous of my success; he abused me every opportunity he could. In one of his sad and sorry bouts of guilt, he took me to a movie, “Christiane F.” It was a German movie with English subtitles. All songs written by David Bowie except for "Heroes/Helden" which was a collaboration between Brian Eno, David Bowie and Antonia Maass.  I knew “Heroes” long before the movie but never heard the lyrics until then.  In the movie, Bowie sang it in German; not only did it hit me to my core, it woke me up. It was on my way home from the movie that I made my decision to leave him. I chose the day when I knew he wasn’t going to be at  home, I quickly packed all I could and left. For a short time, I was homeless, dumpster-diving and going to work at the studio pretending I had my life under control. But. I. Was. Free. From then on, I pledged that I was going to be my own hero even if it was just for a day, every day.

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Carolyn Fe has the deep soul of an artist who has lived on the fringe for most of her life giving her lyrics an insight and depth that must be heard. She writes and produces original material that contains lyrics with highly charged emotions.